Thursday, February 19, 2009
Yeah
I just need a place to vent my feelings that I have been keeping in my heart for so long.So here I go...
I'm not a what-you-see-is-what-you-get kind of person. Sometimes I do stupid things to cover up what I truly feel so I politely ask you not to accuse me of being someone if your only basis is what your perfectionist eyes see. Please don't accuse me as if you know every detail of what's happening to my miserable life only because you see me acting cool or laughing like there's no tomorrow. If only you know that behind those crispy loud laugh and diabetic smile is a pulverized heart seeking for comfort, encouragement and support from a friend.
I want to end it here.
Labels: friendship, life
Thursday, February 5, 2009
LOTS OF HUHUHU
These past days I’ve been locking myself in a room full of bitterness and sadness… Yesterday I had the courage to wake up from my dreams. Realization came to me that I should not have acted as if ‘we’ had a romantic relationship well for in fact it was simply a plain sister-brother relationship. Bla bla bla I was just thinking too much that in just a blink of an eye my heart got excited. I was overjoyed with all the attention he was giving me during those times we were still working together. I still remember whenever he stands beside me, he lays his hands on my shoulders, he chats with me, and calls me with this honorific word ‘ate’ I am in high spirits! Those simple gestures become special when he does it . =) I liked him and I was really really looking forward that he’ll like me too like the way I do even though I know for sure that I’m not his type LOL. Anyway I saw a picture of him with his girlfriend and the girl was beautiful. Her eyes are like those of his and I have noticed that they have similarity with the features of their faces. She is like a female version of him. I just had to give up dreaming about him since I really think that he loves her and compared to her I am absolutely nothing. I will just keep it to myself this feeling I have for him or probably bury it 6 feet under the ground. (that’s what I’m trying to do now and I am really having a hard time doing this. I don’t know until when this feeling will stay in my tiny heart).
Ok done with my drama. Time to study.
Take care. Nobody knows when will I post again. Thanks for visiting my blog every now and then. Love you all!
Ok done with my drama. Time to study.
Take care. Nobody knows when will I post again. Thanks for visiting my blog every now and then. Love you all!